Every day for the last few weeks I’ve told myself I need to post something new on my blog but I haven’t been able to do it. I am now 10 weeks pregnant with our 3rd child (at 38 yrs. old, yikes!) and am having trouble getting through the day. Grocery shopping is exhausting. There is hair all over the bathroom floor that has been mocking me for days and I just can’t make myself suck it up with the dustbuster. I just can’t. I start to write essays and my mind wanders off.
I went to a workshop with Natalie Goldberg (Writing Down The Bones) the other night and she asked us to close our eyes, put our hands face up on our laps and focus on our breathing. Every time our minds began to wander, she told us to pull ourselves back into the breathing. She wanted to teach us about how the mind works. My mind was all over the place and listening to my breathing made me nauseous. What’s happening to me?
The only writing I am able to focus on is my memoir, is my past, everything else overwhelms me. For now. Hopefully, this too will pass. I hope I’ll be able to keep you posted because I know, under the fog inside my brain, there are exciting things I want to share…..